Isaiah

First i’d like to share a photo with you… If you go to our church you will recgonize these two handsome young men.

look at them!

So for about 3 or 4 days before wednesday I had been getting something in my mind to read Isaiah. I don’t know what it was. so we read Isaiah and it was kind of difficult to understand at first, But we got it. I love prayer meetings! I love how close it is with everything. The people, the bible, the prayer it is just all moving. Always makes me in a good mood.

Any how I think it spoke to me some how, the words are yet to be written. I have a screaming child, because I put him in HIS room to take a nap that HE needs and I can’t concentrate. awww man time to go calm the kid down.

Baptized!!!!

What a wonderful day.

Spencer got Baptized this morning.

I was so excited about it.

I was always thinking I wanted the best for my son.

And well I decided that becoming a Christian would be beneficial to both of us spritually,emotionally,phyiscally,supportivly. I know it was in God’s plan for me to meet who I met and for me to keep meeting who I am meeting.

The word of God is so powerful to me these days.

When I chose to get Spencer Baptized I didn’t know what I know now. Now I know a whole-lot more than I would have imagined.

After we went to celebrate at one of his God Mothers House He sure celebrated!

And then He… took a nap

I know and will tell my baby boy that God will love him for who HE is. And that God is the final judge and teach him all of the morals that God would want him to have. I have a feeling I am going to be raising a pretty darn special boy. Who knows he might become a pastor some day. What ever he becomes he will become someone who is great. He already is great. I love you Spencer James. I love you more than words can even say. You are in my life for a reason. You are in my life because God had plans for Momma.

I love him so much

Holy,Holy,Holy.

Last night’s prayer meeting was great!

I actually read out loud with out prompting. AMAZING.

Something inside of me said GO FOR IT. GO FOR IT JANNA THESE PEOPLE LOVE YOU AND CARE ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY!!!

I read these two short things :

When I am afraid,
I will trust in you.–Psalm 56:3

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. — Hebrews 11:1

They may be short, but I did it… I REALLY DID IT! This is a huge step for me. I never read out loud.

So after while. “Uncle” Father Dave comes over and puts his hand over my head and prays over me. Seriously, I felt a warm tingling happy feeling all over. I  had no clue what that meant until I told Suzanne about it. She said it was the holy spirit, I thought… HOW COOL!

This was awesome.

I never thought… Me… I just am so happy with the way things are turning out!

Spencer is getting Baptized on sunday… Another one of those exciting things!!!!!

I am so happy.. I just am…

I can no longer focus on the things that don’t matter. I need to focus on the things I can control and let God do the rest and have Jesus and the Holy Spirit by my side each step of the way.

I love my Sisters, and Brothers, Aunts and Uncles of my Church FAMILY. I LOVE YOU ALL! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU GOD……… I LOVE YOU GOD… I LOVE YOU JESUS

Childhood

I remember when I was a child

I could stay out past when the street lights came on

catching fireflies was an excitement

we didnt care that drinking soda rotted your teeth

that rush we had when we heard the icecream man coming up the street

riding down a big hill on our bikes with no hands

climbing to the top of a tree was more fun than scary

getting grass stains were an every day thing

the fourth of july was a major holiday

catching snakes was not scary

frying ants with a magnifying glass

dinner was at 5pm every day

going out in the snow was fun, we didn’t think about how cold it was

christmas had that special feeling only a child could get

getting the first day of school jitters

boys had cooties

we didn’t have cell phones

making brownies and cookies were a special treat

going to a fast food place or eating pizza was also a special treat

playing with the the oppisite sex was ok and there was nothing more too it

swimming at the beach was just a wonderful experience

collecting seashells and then making something out of them just amazed people

now that I think about it, being a child back when I was, wasn’t so bad…

Jeremiah 29:11-14

I actually spoke at a prayer meeting last night. It was amazing. I couldn’t believe I talked! LOL. That is a fear of mine. I am afraid of sounding stupid. I know no one there will judge me. I love them all.  But it’s like I can’t read that well outloud either.

any way. I was reading something and suzanne was at the same time the SAME THING.

It was all about plans. Then Fran comes up with something that she was thinking about aswell.

How cool. God really talks to us. We have to listen.

Here is the scripture I am leaving you all with. This is the one.

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,” declares the LORD, “and will bring you back from captivity. ^[a] I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the LORD, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”

P.s. jeremiah 29:11 is like my favorite scripture

Hello!

I am finished moving.

Not quite unpacking. I have a closet under my stairs and WOW, just wow there are alot of things in there including my art supplies! I call it ” the closet of doom”

I missed going to church, so on sunday things will be back to “normal” in my life.

What is normal any way! things are always changing. This time for the better.

God put us here in this house for a reason.

any way hope to see you all on sunday!

*waves*

*WAVES*

HI PEOPLE!

I am probably taking a little break because I am moving YAYAYYAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

I am MOVING!!!

God had it in his plan for Spencer and I to move on out!!!

I am PSYCHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We got the keys signed the lease and everything!

It’s huge from what I am compared to!

I love it!!! its all redone in side all new carpeting

YAY!!!!!

THANK YOU GOD!

sadly the lady who lived there before  went to the hospital and passed away ( or so they say she was at the hospital! lol)

I dont care if someone died in my house or not, but I hope they were being honest with me.

Wow… I think my son spoke to Jesus.

I really think my son knows who Jesus is. Now, Remember Spencer is 21 months old. He goes to church EVERY sunday with me and sometimes we go on wednesdays. We have shown him crosses and stuff of Jesus And pictures and his little bible.

He also sees people in church raising their arms to Jesus and praising the lord during song.

But tonight. I went out of the room while I left him in his crib because it was bed time. I saw him peeking over the side of his bed and then I came in the room, not even fully. And he raises his arms and looks up and smiles and says ” Jeesah,Jeesah,Jeesah(Jeesah=Jesus)” And did the same thing about THREE more times.

I am taking this as a blessing that God and Jesus are really touching my family, they are really getting through to all of us. Well in this household any way.

So there ya have it. It’s something i’d share with the whole church, but I am too chicken to talk infront of a group of people… Hmmm… Need self help books on that! haha.

Good night and God Bless

I am Hurt…

I am hurt by the fact that my family  ( aunts and uncles) does not want to come to see Spencer getting Baptized. I have been to almost EVERY birthday party and christening of their children. I know I shouldn’t expect anything in return, but they are SUPPOSED to be my family. I am wrong, purely wrong. When I told them I was going to church they looked at me weird.  These are the people that told me they would be there for me when my son was born and help me out as much as they could. Have I gotten ANY help from them? Or even a phone call to say merry christmas, or happy birthday or ANYTHING??? NO!!! I am upset. It hurts.

They were like ???? WHY that one?! said I fit in at that church, I feel comfortable. I feel like I am at home there. They don’t get it and they don’t care. It’s called judging a book by it’s cover thats what it’s called.  Am I angry, yes I am. I am only human.   I have gotten more love by going to my church and having my church family more than years of knowing this family. And these people haven’t even known me long. I love them as much as they love me.

My dad’s side doesn’t even communicate with me at all. Well except for my roman-catholic grandmother who is very roman-catholic… Ya know… And my mom’s side is REALLY drifting away from me.  My mom, well she can be annoying, but she IS THERE FOR ME. She really is and I love and appriciate her for that. I hope that she can see that. I was really crappy to her when I was a teenager. But now it’s different.

I am 24 years old and I have love. LOTS OF LOVE.

I love GOD, I love JESUS, I LOVE MY CHURCH FAMILY… I have so much love to GIVE.

So… Spencer is getting Baptized on July 13th 2008 at 10am service. If you are there I appriciate it!!!